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By Gedvondur (Fri Feb 27, 2015 at 12:57:57 PM EST) dammit all (all tags)
Rest in Peace, Leonard Nimoy.  I'll miss you.

It’s silly. I shouldn’t be upset. 
I didn’t know Leonard Nimoy. I’m not related to him. I’m not a “superfan.”
Yet I find myself at my desk crying. I’m not sure if this is just what has been a stressful week finally coming to a head or if it’s something else.
When I was young, my mother turned me on to Star Trek, the original series. It was on Saturday afternoons, some Sundays. We would watch it on what we would consider today a ridiculously small General Electric television. My mother would push me towards watching Star Trek, not because she wanted me out from underfoot, but because she loved the message of hope that the series had. Spock’s logic and the stories where he lost his lack of emotion were compelling to me. As a young nerd, I related to Spock. I wanted to be Spock, smart, logical, and unaffected by the petty taunts and teasing of those around me. I wanted the confidence and the respect Spock commanded. I didn’t want to be the brash, jock-ish Kirk. I wanted to be Spock.
Over the years Star Trek was derided as preachy and an unrealistic fantasy. Gritty sci-fi centered around dystopias became the norm. Yet, Star Trek endured, with its message that one day we will be able to get around our own worst natures, get away from the greed, war, and lust for money for it’s own sake. That one day we could overcome the continual strife that limitations on resources like food and clean water bring to the world.
Even more that we could get over the petty hate for people with different skin or different religion. Toleration and celebration, words that are used with derision by some can be the norm. There are those that don’t think that these ideals are worth holding close. They think that because we cannot eliminate our worse natures entirely that it’s not worth trying. 
For my part I will not set aside those ideals, portrayed in a wagon-train to the stars. I won’t forget the pleasure and wonder that the series gave me. The warm nostalgia of my childhood, in Nimoy’s voice, first on Star Trek, then with more earthly wonders on In Search Of. I won’t forget his performances in the movies, the pain I felt at Spock’s death, or the quick humor of a reborn Spock on Earth in the 80s, struggling to deal with our society.
Now Nimoy is gone and I feel like I’ve lost a friend I’ve never met. He had a hand in making me see something bright in the gloom of the world and for that I am thankful for him and all he did.

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VS2FP by miserere (4.00 / 5) #1 Fri Feb 27, 2015 at 01:19:27 PM EST
This is beautifully written, and manages to say so much of what I've been feeling since seeing the news of his passing. I, too, wanted to be Spock (though I kind of wanted to be the bionic man more). And, as I learned more about him, I developed a deep and abiding respect and admiration for Nimoy the man. I am incredibly sad that we no longer have him in the world.

Thank you. n/t by Gedvondur (4.00 / 1) #2 Fri Feb 27, 2015 at 01:23:15 PM EST

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man, for me it's going to be when patrick stewart by the mariner (4.00 / 4) #3 Fri Feb 27, 2015 at 02:08:43 PM EST
dies, but yeah... i was shocked by this too.

I'm sad by georgeha (4.00 / 1) #4 Fri Feb 27, 2015 at 02:55:40 PM EST
but I was a lot more distraught when Jerry died.

In... uh... by ana (4.00 / 3) #5 Fri Feb 27, 2015 at 03:22:20 PM EST
lemme see now... 1973 or 74 in the summertime, I was working for my folks building their house. The sun was hot on the south side of the place so we'd get up early and work there before the sun came around, eat breakfast and work elsewhere until Star Trek came on mid-afternoon, knock off and watch reruns of TOS. About the time that ended the sun would sink below the nearby mountain, so we could work on the south front of the house again. Good times.

I had watched the original series when it first aired (of course), being a kid in school. And I think a generation of nerds learned it's okay to be different, before the hippies figured that out from a completely different angle. The positive take on society kind of slipped in under my radar. I guess that's the best way.

And we were days from starvation until those missionaries knocked on our door. We made Alfred Packer stew. --georgeha

+1FP by jimgon (4.00 / 2) #6 Sat Feb 28, 2015 at 01:52:32 PM EST

Technician - "We can't even get decent physical health care. Mental health is like witchcraft here."
VS2FP by TheophileEscargot (4.00 / 1) #7 Sat Feb 28, 2015 at 02:06:51 PM EST
Well said.
It is unlikely that the good of a snail should reside in its shell: so is it likely that the good of a man should?
Thank you! n/t by Gedvondur (2.00 / 0) #10 Mon Mar 02, 2015 at 10:19:28 AM EST

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Thank you by StackyMcRacky (4.00 / 1) #8 Sun Mar 01, 2015 at 03:53:26 PM EST
this really articulated my feelings, as well.

Thank you! n/t by Gedvondur (2.00 / 0) #9 Mon Mar 02, 2015 at 10:18:10 AM EST

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