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By gzt (Tue Aug 25, 2009 at 05:25:43 PM EST) gzt, excel, schizoid (all tags)
Girl, I want to know if love is real.

Da dun dun dun. Dun. Dun.

Sorry, I was listening to Springsteen on the way in to work this morning.

I nearly blacked out twice in the gym last night. Good times. The first time, I was on my fourth set of front squats. I took the bar off the pins and things started to go black. I managed to dump it back onto the pins. Must have compressed my carotid artery. I waited a minute and then went on ahead. The second time, I was warming up for deadlifts. I had 315 on the bar, did one lift, put it down, and then stood up too quickly. Woo orthostatic hypotension. I wobbled around for like 5 seconds, then carried on with what I was doing. I lost something, though, because I only made 3/5 on my work set.

I think I have some schizoid tendencies. Obviously, I'm not schizoid per se, since I have fulfilling and deep relationships with an emotional dimension with people beside myself, namely R, but there are very few. I work hard at it. So I'm obviously not pathological. I'm also not averse to criticism, I actively seek it. Nobody offers it. Nobody. Does HuSi help or hinder?

I listened to "The Wall" yesterday.

I have a lot of stupid little stuff to figure out for planning. Bah. And just living. I'm putting off a few things that I really should get on. Like car repairs, emissions testing, and registration.

Don Quixote plods along.

All this thought about emotions, history, etc plods along. "How did your parents show love? How was your relationship with your parents? How do you show love?" Dammit, I don't want to talk about this stuff. People of Earth! I don't have feelings.

I really should find a florist some place between work and where R lives. Hrm.

Ah! I just went down to the basement: there's a florist down there.

I weighed in at 110.5kg yesterday, 3kg more than the last time I weighed myself.

Not much progress on exam studying. Hard to give a shit, hard to crack into this. See, a lot of this stuff I should learn by doing, but it's not clear how much of a carryover there is to doing it like this and doing it on the exam. Do I need to know the formula and build this tree on the exam using only a sheet of paper and a crappy calculator, or should I do this in a sane way because this exact sort of problem isn't on the exam and doing it in Excel is fine to learn the concept? I can't get it to work on this crappy calculator. It takes forever. And then for some reason I stop giving a shit.

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the stuff that clock seems to want to get rid of by garlic (2.00 / 0) #1 Tue Aug 25, 2009 at 06:46:20 PM EST
is the part of husi that will call one on their shit. We're all pretty chummy and tactful and don't want to call each other out most of the time. The only time it happens is some terrible effort to troll each other, but nobody is fooling anybody there.

well.. by sasquatchan (2.00 / 0) #2 Tue Aug 25, 2009 at 07:47:16 PM EST
I've gotten the occasional 1 or 0 for saying non-nice stuff when I see it. Maybe more than occasional.

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I doubt HuSi... by gzt (2.00 / 0) #3 Tue Aug 25, 2009 at 10:04:31 PM EST able to offer truly meaningful criticism, since what I write is processed through several filters. Viz: It is, by necessity, rather more self-centered than I personally am because I don't want to write about other people very much, especially not in the publically readable area - when I have in the past, it's come back to bite me. Even in its most confessional, this diary is the press conference persona rather than the usual affect. And did I mention I have schizoid tendencies?

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HuSi help or hinder... by gzt (2.00 / 0) #4 Tue Aug 25, 2009 at 10:49:30 PM EST
...referred to helping with schizoid tendencies, rather than criticism.

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