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By Gedvondur (Wed Oct 21, 2009 at 11:10:54 PM EST) WTF, supersitition, stupidity (all tags)

I am possessed of an odd feeling.

I am neither a religious man nor a superstitious one. My sense of reason doesn’t allow it. Yet on very rare occasions I feel a sense of dread that I cannot easily explain. Paranoia? The Pad Thai I ate for dinner? I cannot explain it.

I feel that there is a sense of change in the wind. A foreboding that something in my cushioned little world is about to come crashing down. I cannot put my finger on what or why, but the feeling is with me strongly. Reason tells me that there is no sense in it. My finances, while not perfect, are far from a disaster. The health of my loved ones and I is reasonably good. There is some work stress in regards to the financial health of my company, but I am not in any imminent danger of losing my job. Life proceeds pretty well, actually. Perhaps this writing will dispel the feeling.

Yet this evening it the sense of foreboding clings to me. I have tried to shake it off; I have tried to dismiss it. Yet it clings to me like the smell of smoke after an hour by the camp fire. My emotional mind tries to tell me I have been right about these things before, wants me to believe that I have some sort of premonition power. Yet for every time a feeling like this has been validated, there are probably 100 lesser instances where nothing came of it and were therefore not memorable. I do not have the power of premonition. I am not a psychic sensitive. Furthermore, I don’t believe anyone is.

My mind persists in the possibilities of what could be wrong. Job. Family. Death. Health. Yet unlike normal bouts of anxiety there are no specifics. It is just the gray cloud of doom, just over the trees. It will be gone by morning, it always is.

Eli’s coming.

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It's skeptics like you by muchagecko (4.00 / 1) #1 Wed Oct 21, 2009 at 11:55:58 PM EST

and me, that make the best seers/psychics. I've never felt anything, but I've seen plenty.

Check out all the options, but keep a notebook about your feelings. You might see a pattern. Let me know what you find, k?

A purpose gives you a reason to wake up every morning.
So a purpose is like a box of powdered donut holes?
Exactly
My Name is Earl

Hmmm by Gedvondur (4.00 / 1) #8 Thu Oct 22, 2009 at 01:13:17 PM EST

No offense, but honestly even if I could see a pattern, that's not even close to rigorous evidence of the supernatural or psychic powers. I simply don't believe in those things. I don't see a point in looking.

Gedvondur

"...I almost puked like a pregnant StackyMcRacky." --MillMan

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: Cripes! What intelligent person would? by muchagecko (4.00 / 1) #12 Thu Oct 22, 2009 at 04:02:00 PM EST

I believe some folks can see or feel more than most folks. There's a lot of information out in our world that most people can't perceive.

Some folks are Commodore 64s and some are MacPros interpreting our world. It's all about how you process and read information. The Commodore just isn't going to get much.

A purpose gives you a reason to wake up every morning.
So a purpose is like a box of powdered donut holes?
Exactly
My Name is Earl
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I don't think you qualify as a skeptic. by garlic (4.00 / 1) #17 Fri Oct 23, 2009 at 11:31:54 AM EST

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I don't think you qualify by muchagecko (4.00 / 1) #20 Fri Oct 23, 2009 at 01:42:38 PM EST

as someone that knows me enough to judge.

A purpose gives you a reason to wake up every morning.
So a purpose is like a box of powdered donut holes?
Exactly
My Name is Earl

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the common definition of skeptic by garlic (4.00 / 1) #21 Fri Oct 23, 2009 at 01:46:17 PM EST

wouldn't include someone that says that skeptics make the best oracles. So I don't know you, but I do know English.

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: Did you read the rest of the thread? by muchagecko (4.00 / 1) #22 Fri Oct 23, 2009 at 02:19:53 PM EST

Information. Data. People are like computers interpreting the world.

I don't believe in magic or oracles. Astrology is bullshit. Reincarnation is a crutch, as is the big, friendly, Patriarch.

But obviously I care about you.

A purpose gives you a reason to wake up every morning.
So a purpose is like a box of powdered donut holes?
Exactly
My Name is Earl
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(Comment Deleted) by xth (4.00 / 2) #2 Thu Oct 22, 2009 at 06:08:24 AM EST

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...banana phone! [nt] by debacle (4.00 / 2) #11 Thu Oct 22, 2009 at 02:33:11 PM EST

IF YOU HAVE TWO FIRLES THOROWNF MONEY ART SUOCIDE GIRLS STRIPPER HPW CAN YPUS :OSE?!?!?!?(elcevisides).

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: awesome. by garlic (4.00 / 1) #18 Fri Oct 23, 2009 at 11:32:25 AM EST

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That Sense of Impending Doom by wiredog (4.00 / 1) #3 Thu Oct 22, 2009 at 10:44:18 AM EST

is usually triggered by impending doom.

Earth First!
_{(We can strip mine the rest later.)}

Heh by Gedvondur (2.00 / 0) #7 Thu Oct 22, 2009 at 01:11:38 PM EST

Well can't you just rock me right to sleep.

Gedvondur

"...I almost puked like a pregnant StackyMcRacky." --MillMan

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: I'm the Bluebird of Happiness! by wiredog (4.00 / 1) #10 Thu Oct 22, 2009 at 02:00:24 PM EST

Earth First!
_{(We can strip mine the rest later.)}
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"Winter" ? by ad hoc (4.00 / 2) #4 Thu Oct 22, 2009 at 11:03:32 AM EST

--

Certainly could be by Gedvondur (2.00 / 0) #6 Thu Oct 22, 2009 at 01:10:51 PM EST

Fuck me, it's gotten all winter up in our grill real fast. I was thinking that there would be at least a few days of moderately warm weather before descending into this crap, but it has been utter crap since the beginning of October.

Gedvondur

"...I almost puked like a pregnant StackyMcRacky." --MillMan

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: most falls, i get that feeling by LilFlightTest (4.00 / 1) #23 Fri Oct 23, 2009 at 04:50:57 PM EST

this one not so much, i'm too busy feeling like crap to feel too depressed. but i definitely know the feeling.
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if de-virgination results in me being able to birth hammerhead sharks, SIGN ME UP!!! --misslake
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^ THIS by ammoniacal (2.00 / 0) #14 Thu Oct 22, 2009 at 09:45:15 PM EST

SO MUCH WIN!

"To this day that was the most bullshit caesar salad I have every experienced..." - triggerfinger

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Don't ignore either feeling by notafurry (4.00 / 2) #5 Thu Oct 22, 2009 at 11:05:42 AM EST

The foreboding or the rational skepticism. You think I became a pagan because of the girls? Wait, don't answer that.

Your mind is telling you something. If it makes you feel better, substitute "sixth sense" or "the gods are trying to tell me" with "my subconscious has put together perfectly rational evidence that my conscious mind has seen but doesn't yet recognize". The meaning is the same.

: Not sure by Gedvondur (2.00 / 0) #9 Thu Oct 22, 2009 at 01:18:43 PM EST

It really isn't a matter of ignoring the feeling or not. The sense is so vague, there really isn't anything TO do. It has passed since anyway.

I respect your beliefs, although I can't share in them. That being said, I can buy the idea of an intuitive leap, but I think I would be better able to believe that if the feeling was even a little more specific or there was something going on. Even something as mundane as bad weather. But there wasn't. There was only the feeling. Very odd.

Gedvondur

"...I almost puked like a pregnant StackyMcRacky." --MillMan
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: minds aren't rational by garlic (2.00 / 0) #19 Fri Oct 23, 2009 at 11:33:29 AM EST

they are rationalizing.

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nah by dev trash (4.00 / 1) #13 Thu Oct 22, 2009 at 04:40:20 PM EST

It was the Pad Thai

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Click

hope it passes quickly. by misslake (4.00 / 1) #15 Fri Oct 23, 2009 at 09:37:26 AM EST

sometimes The Fear stalks me too.

are you getting enough sleep? i find a few extra hoursh spent cozied up in bed dispells it.
evey once in a while i go to bed at 8 PM just so i can wake up fully rested at 4 AM and get to lie in bed for an extra hour or two.

lying in the dark before dawn with the rest of the house asleep around me is extra comforting.

: Fortunately by Gedvondur (2.00 / 0) #16 Fri Oct 23, 2009 at 10:27:27 AM EST

It was gone by morning. Thankfully these feelings never last long.

Gedvondur

"...I almost puked like a pregnant StackyMcRacky." --MillMan
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