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By Gedvondur (Mon Aug 06, 2007 at 04:03:16 PM EST) MiMi, pets, sadness, manliness, mothers (all tags)
Warning:  Probably emotionally excessive outpouring regarding the death of my mother's dog inside.  If you are having a bad day, you can skip this and I recommend you do.

I just need to get it off my chest.

As I wander through the world I put on an exquisite show.  One deeply practiced and driven into me by society.  I strut about in an attempt to be manly and otherwise act the American Male. 

The truth is that I am emotional and soft.  Those that know me well know that I possess a core of emotion that often times I have trouble containing.  Yet, they say nothing as it would ruin my exquisite performance.

I received an email today from my mother, an unusual event in itself.  It was in regard to her little white Shih Tzu, named MiMi.  The contents are as follows:

“Gedvondur & Weetabix,
MiMi has been ill for several days. It was not curable. I lost my little shadow today.

Upon reading this I proved my manliness by bursting into tears. 

MiMi was over 10 years old and had a pretty trouble free life.  MiMi was devoted to my mother and followed her everywhere she went.  I think that’s what I am having trouble dealing with.

While I will miss MiMi, I wasn’t particularly close to her.  She was a good little dog, but really only had time and affection for my Mother.  What is tearing at me is the phrase “I lost my little shadow today.”  The sadness I felt from that phrase undid me.  Events such as these are part of life, but the pain it caused my mother and the ache contained in those six words left me unmanned.

Pets come and go, but the joys they bring are worth the pain of their passing.  I wrote my mother back and called her several hours later.  She’s still shaky and cried on the phone.  I was strong for her, it is the least I could do.  I cried again when I hung up.  I know my mother will be alright, she’s an incredibly strong woman.  Yet I would do anything to end her sadness.  I know there is nothing, yet that is no solace in that.

I have no doubt my mother will get another dog, perhaps even two.  Things will be alright again.  And in this……..this ability to admit my own weakness, that’s okay too.  To not acknowledge my own feeling would be worse than just letting them out.  I think it would kill me inside if I didn’t let it out.  Even John Wayne cried. 

Some may scoff that I am too soft or a wimp for admitting my own feelings.  Even a part of me accuses me of being a wimp.

I care too much to keep it inside, and it wouldn’t be healthy anyway.  I know who I am.  I’m the guy that gets maudlin when a little white dog dies.  You know what?  I’m okay with that.

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MiMi | 11 comments (11 topical, 0 hidden)
I'm sory about your mom's dog by georgeha (4.00 / 1) #1 Mon Aug 06, 2007 at 05:45:45 PM EST
I cried at our last dead cat.

Thanks by Gedvondur (2.00 / 0) #2 Mon Aug 06, 2007 at 06:56:33 PM EST
Thanks, Big G I appreciate that.  It's always tough to lose a pet. 

It's just hard for me to admit that I need to let it out.  It comes out anyway, best to just get it over with.

On the plus side, I felt a lot better after writing this. 

"Well, one of the two girls I'm friendly with out here is a Christian and she wouldn't do the things I want to do." --Sapphire

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I worry about the day our cat dies by LodeRunner (4.00 / 2) #3 Mon Aug 06, 2007 at 06:56:37 PM EST
It used to be me, my brother, my sister, mom and dad, and a cat in the house.
Then my sister got married, so it became me and my brother, mom and dad, and the cat (another, the current one) in the house.
Then my brother moved away, so it was me, mom, dad and the cat.
Then mom passed away, so it was me, dad and the cat.
Then I moved to another state to study, so now it's dad and the cat.
The cat is now over 10 years old. I know dad; when the day comes, he'll say it was "no big deal". But I still worry.

I hear ya by Gedvondur (4.00 / 1) #4 Mon Aug 06, 2007 at 07:02:31 PM EST
I don't blame you for worrying, it is certainly a concern.  I think that for the most part people grieve and then they move on.  Not to say that they don't remember, but they do move on.

I want my mother to get another dog, probably two.  My Pop works in a paper mill on a swing shift and is out of the house a lot.  My mother is retired, but Pop won't retire until next year.  I want her to get the dogs for company.

I suspect your father should continue with a pet of some sort as well when the time comes.  Hopefully that won't be for a while.  I had a cat that lived to over twenty, in reasonably good health.

"Well, one of the two girls I'm friendly with out here is a Christian and she wouldn't do the things I want to do." --Sapphire

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dad and the cat. by wiredog (4.00 / 2) #6 Tue Aug 07, 2007 at 04:35:50 AM EST
That's how it is for my dad. Him and the cat. He's 78, so he probably won't get another cat when this one dies.

The cat is great company for him.

Earth First!
(We can strip mine the rest later.)

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My dad's the same age as yours. by LodeRunner (4.00 / 1) #11 Wed Aug 08, 2007 at 02:32:47 PM EST
If this cat dies, I'll probably give dad another one. Last time my sister's cat had kitties and she was giving them away, he even liked one of them and thought about keeping it, but didn't because it was a female (and he didn't want to go through the hassle of getting her operated, etc.)

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So sorry to hear about it. by ana (4.00 / 1) #5 Tue Aug 07, 2007 at 04:23:48 AM EST
It's sad, losing a pet. :-(

Power up your flaming yo-yos already! --StackyMcRacky

Wow, that is a heart-rending line . . . by slozo (4.00 / 1) #7 Tue Aug 07, 2007 at 04:40:28 AM EST
. . . about the little shadow.

Buy your mom a puppy. A different breed of dog. You won't be replacing a friend, just offering a new one . . .

Hmmm by Gedvondur (4.00 / 1) #8 Tue Aug 07, 2007 at 04:59:36 AM EST
It was a hard line to take.

I am pretty sure she is going to be picky about which breed of dog she gets.  She has had a couple of Cairn Terriers, I hope she gets another of those.  I don't think she will get another Shih Tzu, too much hair maintenance. 

We will see, I expect she will have another dog soon enough.

"Well, one of the two girls I'm friendly with out here is a Christian and she wouldn't do the things I want to do." --Sapphire

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tread carefully by Merekat (4.00 / 1) #9 Tue Aug 07, 2007 at 05:12:25 AM EST
Getting another pet too soon without chosing it yourself can feel a bit callous.

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This is true . . . by slozo (4.00 / 1) #10 Tue Aug 07, 2007 at 06:19:45 AM EST
. . . it really depends on who the person is, and how well they deal with the death of a pet.

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