I never imagined we'd hit the mark this quickly. Since I've been on the pill for 10 years, I honestly thought it would take months to get me knocked up. Don't get me wrong, I'm very excited! It's just kind of surreal.
So far, being pregnant isn't very much fun. I'm cold, tired, and have a teenage complexion once again. Even when the weather is great, I'm cold. It seems all my energy is too busy with the oil, pus, and baby production to both with keeping me warm. And hell, we could be finished with the mid-east for good if we found a way to harvest the oil my skin is producing right now. Yuck.
I keep cycling through all the usual anxieties as well. What if I'm a terrible mother? What if I do something that causes me to miscarry? What if my mother never leaves me alone? OMG, our lives will never be the same again! Etc.
The biggest anxiety is money. I know we'll get things figured out in time, but looking at the numbers freaks me the hell out right now. As it currently stands, we could not afford to live on a single paycheck. The reason: the stupid divorce settlement. If it were reduced from $1k/mo. to $500/mo. we could easily scrape by. Like I said before, we'll get it figured out, but until then the numbers stress me out.
We analyzed our spending and have started making cuts. Beginning tomorrow, I will be taking the bus to the train to the shuttle. This changes my commute from 35 mins to 1hr 15 mins, but total savings will be around $250/mo! (note: part of the savings comes from clock taking my car to work - 47mpg, baby!) We've also found a few ways to save more on groceries. The plan is to throw as much money into savings as possible right now, so we can at least have a nice cushion.
In other news, the holiday was good. I got some nice gifts for both xmas and my birthday. I am now the owner of 10,000 napkins. Let me know if you need to borrow a set or 10.
My newphew is way cute. He's also quite a giant - the doctor said he's the size of an average 1 year old....did I mention he's only 6 months?
We spent the weekend cleaning out the various closets in the house. I'm impressed at the pile of crap we're getting rid of. Too bad we're too lazy to have a garage sale/put things up on ebay/whatever. Getting it out of the house is what counts.
NYE we went to a party, and I was able to stay awake until 11pm! Woo hoo! Rock and roll lifestyle, let me tell ya!
I suppose I should be spending some quality time on the finer points of HACMP so I can convert some servers. Good times, good times.
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