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By Sapphire13 (Sun Aug 13, 2006 at 09:03:35 AM EST) (all tags)
I'm not feeling appreciated today.


Freaky and I had an argument this morning.  I simply wanted him to say, "Sapphire, I appreciate you and the sacrifices you have made here in AZ."  Instead, he had to make the whole thing about himself.  He simply doesn't get it.  He thinks he is the center of the universe and everyone's lives revolve around him.  He is so competitive for EVERYONE'S attention. 

He got mad about the timing of coming to AZ.  I had to have a job.  We wouldn't have survived without me working.  If it wasn't for me working to put a roof over our heads.  For me paying the lab fees so he can go to school.  He wouldn't be there!  Instead, he got mad because we had to leave sooner than he wanted to leave.  Funny, he scheduled the 12th of May for us to leave...we left the 16th.  I'd say he got his way. 

I just want to get away from him for a few days, and that isn't going to happen for about three weeks. I just hope I can find the money to go.  I'm just feeling defeated and I just want to feel better. 

We haven't had sex in over a month.  Lately, I'm feeling more like Mommy than Girlfriend.  I am feeling really sad for the past few days.

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Sounds like you're ready for marriage. by ammoniacal (4.00 / 2) #1 Sun Aug 13, 2006 at 09:55:29 AM EST

"To this day that was the most bullshit caesar salad I have every experienced..." - triggerfinger

Like a razor blade by georgeha (4.00 / 1) #2 Sun Aug 13, 2006 at 11:53:18 AM EST
truth so sharp it hurts.


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Trial by Sapphire13 (2.00 / 0) #3 Sun Aug 13, 2006 at 02:30:52 PM EST
The time out here is supposed to be the trial run before marriage.  If we get along out here we shouldn't have a problem at home.  Living out here not having a support net is much harder than I expected.  I never expected it to be easy.  It was easy to just go visit family or friends for a weekend to get out of each other's hair.  I really miss that.  We've been together for six years and living together on and off for four.  I'm sure we will get things worked out..or as usual, I'll brush it under the rug.  (Avoidance is too easy for me.  I need to start seeing a therapist.)

TOP SCOOP TIP: by ammoniacal (4.00 / 1) #4 Sun Aug 13, 2006 at 04:41:21 PM EST
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"To this day that was the most bullshit caesar salad I have every experienced..." - triggerfinger

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