Print Story Three Weeks of Sick
By duxup (Tue Mar 14, 2006 at 08:28:05 PM EST) illness, work, graduate school, fiance, movie, Walk The Line (all tags)
And I'm sick of it, please let me get better God.

duxup is still sick and sick of it.
Movie Talk: Walk The Line
Bad News: Graduate School

Three Weeks of Illness

I'm a wuss.

Somewhere around Wednesday 2/22 I noticed I had a sore throat.   It felt like something more and I was right, by the weekend my sinuses were a mess, and I had unpleasantness coming out of everywhere and an ear infection (both ears) to boot.  The following Tuesday I went to the M.D.  I was prescribed an antibiotic for the ear infection.  Around that time I also got a cough.  Whatever it was also had made it to my lungs so I was coughing.

The sinus mess died down in about a week after the M.D. visit.  Still a runny / stuffy nose but nothing as pressure intensive as before.  The cough continued.  The antibiotics ran out a couple days later, and my ears have cleared of fluid so I can hear well again (yay)

Finally a few days ago the sinuses cleared like they do when I get a sinus thing, totally dry, uncomfortably dry.  The cough then got bad for a day and returned to it’s occasional coughing fit status.

Then came the sore throat again with the cough and that’s where I stand.  Throat is sore, not incredibly painful as Advil and a halls tends to mitigate it.  The nose is runny again but not end of the world runny like before.  I still feel generally ill above the shoulders.

Mysteriously a two nights ago I couldn’t sleep a wink.   I just laid there and just didn't sleep.  It was as if I was taking Sudafed (it keeps me awake like crazy) but I haven't taken any at all.  I’m guessing it was from cumulative lack of exercise and general inactivity.  Fortunately last night I was able to sleep well, and I should tonight although it will likely be propped up with some pillows.

Toss in the fact that the fiancé was doing her work at the theater and a full time job for a few weeks (always stressful) and received a you were not chosen gram from the University for a graduate program (I’ll talk more about that later) and it has been a rough couple weeks.

I just want to feel normal.  I'm miserable.  I’ve forgotten what normal feels like I think :(

Movie: Walk The Line

I saw Walk The Line recently.  It was a good film, but hardly the great film that I had heard about.  Maybe I’m a bit jaded but I’m tired of the musical person comes from difficult background, musical person deals with the difficulty of a music career, drug and alcohol abuse follows, family falls apart, musical person is saved.

It all seemed so generic I didn’t feel that I learned much about Johnny Cash, and I didn’t know much.  It was hard to point out anything wrong, the acting was good, and singing was great. 

Some nitpicking:

I thought some of the name-dropping got a bit awkward.  When Cash is living with Waylon Jennings the only scene you them together in seems purposely built to drop Waylon’s name and then it abruptly ends.  The same goes for the Bob Dylan references.  I think it would have been more fun to see those folks and Cash actually do stuff together to provide some context and meaning.

At one point in the film we see Cash at a bank having money problems, then just two scenes later he buys a huge house . . . . wtf? 

In the end the movie felt hollow, like a TV movie of the week but with better actors and good music.   It seemed to miss the mark and focus just on Cash’s personal life.  I didn’t feel I understood Cash, his music, or anything or much else about him than I did before I saw the movie.


My employer announced that they turned a profit, and a reasonable one at that.  HR has already began its assault on company morale by noting that the indecipherable profit sharing formula provided last month will not quite apply to this quarters profits in the way we might think in order to inflate the profits that we report. 

If anyone actually knew how to calculate our profit sharing we might actually know what we’re missing.  Instead we grumble ignorantly.  I because I think we should be able to decipher the mystery of the profit sharing formula without a protractor in the first place.  Most of my coworkers complain because they think they’re getting robbed of some cash.  We’ll all take the money regardless.

Meanwhile I got a super secret off the record offer of a job from elsewhere in the company.  I’m flattered by the offer, but it essentially boils down to a few more $, for a lot more work with even more insane hours, and working in a department whose position in the company I consider even more uncertain than my own.

Bad News: Graduate School

The fiancé got bad news from the university.  They turned down her application for the Speech Therapy program.  This came as a bit of a surprised based on the response she got from the folks she contacted who run the program and her honors she received when she attended the university.  We thought she had an excellent shot.

The fiancé was crushed by the news.  She is very sad, depressed even.  It didn’t help that she got the news at the end of one of those crazy working two jobs at once months where she’s burnt out as it is, toss in the fact that I’ve been sick and it’s all a pile of crud at once. 

Meanwhile here current employment the store (more ominously pronounced all the time) is not going well.  Like all retail outlets somewhere along the way the line between a fun place to work was crossed and after four years of being open all the established folk have gone, the management is bitter and turnover is high. 

The fiancé is one of those folks who really enjoys doing a good job.  Being reliable she gets assigned all kinds of things that need to get done ASAP, then when she gets behind she gets a bit demoralized.  Toss in the fact that the store is run by your typical retail management (inexperienced, unprofessional) and overlooked by your typical retail corporate HQ (people are overhead, do more with less) and you get the idea.

I suppose more change could be unsettling but she’s moving in at the end of next month and I look forward to being able to keep her spirits up and support her in finding what she wants to do next.

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Three Weeks of Sick | 5 comments (5 topical, 0 hidden)
What's painfully clear to me by joh3n (4.00 / 3) #1 Wed Mar 15, 2006 at 02:59:48 AM EST
is that nearly every one of the problems listed in your post can be cured by civ4 and the nintendo DS.

Now go forth and claim what is yours.


DEATH TO THOSE WHO OPPOSE ME! by duxup (4.00 / 1) #4 Wed Mar 15, 2006 at 10:41:59 AM EST
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I had two good days in February by georgeha (4.00 / 1) #2 Wed Mar 15, 2006 at 04:33:13 AM EST
I was checking that with my workout sheet at the Y, I felt like crap from the end of January until the beginning of March, save for the 22nd and 23rd of February. I still have that nagging cough going on, but I'm down to one cough drop every half hour. I may ask my primary about a sinus shunt, sure, I may look odd with tubes coming out of my face, but Id; probably feel really good.

Sorry to hear about that grad school thing, those lying bastards.

duxup is the epitome of by calla (4.00 / 1) #3 Wed Mar 15, 2006 at 07:40:03 AM EST
a good supportive boyfriend. Because of all your "I love you" diaries, I knew you would be.

Walk The Line by ks1178 (4.00 / 1) #5 Wed Mar 15, 2006 at 12:46:34 PM EST
I agree that some parts of the movie were not expressed very well. I think the passage time was expressed poorly.

As for the bank scene. It wasn't that Cash didn't have the money. It was that the bank wouldn't cash a $2000 dollar check without putting a hold on it. And Cash wanted the money, or even a fraction of it immediatly.

I think what they were trying to get across was that Cash wasn't giving a shit about anything. Even though he had regular checks coming in from album sales, he just wasn't arsed enough to actually cash them so he could do little things like pay a $10 dollar phone bill.

I think the Dylan name dropping was more a way to give an idea to the date when Cash came out of his funk and started giving a shit about music again. Also it was used to emphasize how the music scene had changed from the likes of Elvis and Jerry Lee Lewis to the likes of Bob Dylan and early Beatles music.

Jennings probably could have played a bigger role, or shouldn't have been included at all.

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