My mood swings are all over the place. I try to keep myself centered, but it's hard. The only consistant things are my constant need to vomit, I'm not sleeping, and I literally have to force myself to eat. I've also found that a complete emotional breakdown at lunch really helps me get through the rest of the day.
I've realized I need some closure on a situation I will probably never get. I could ask for it, in theory, but I don't really have a right to. The mind is a funny thing - it will hold on to the impossible until it has actual proof at how impossible that thing is.
Ugh, I feel so ill. Habit must be the reason I'm able to come into work.
The closet company still owes me ~$300. Supposedly, I'll get the money this week. That office manager really likes to work at her own pace.
I can't find the web site I downloaded my Wonder Woman screen saver from. I originally found it on Google, but it's not coming up anymore. Damnit.
I will have a lot of time to myself on Saturday. Hopefully, it won't rain so I can dig up my pathetic front yard beds. Manual labor is always good. Physical pain is so much easier to deal with.
My workload has become quite feast or famine. When I have a billion "real work" things to do, the oncall is completely out of hand. When it's slow (like today, waiting on the vendor), oncall is dead. Too bad life isn't fair.
I keep having long moments (30mins+) of just staring at my screen but seeing nothing.
Feh, might as well post. Commenting is more fun anyway.
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