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By johnny (Wed Feb 05, 2014 at 10:45:02 PM EST) (all tags)
I suck because I've been in a rut for a long time now, since, let's say, 2005, 2007, something in that neighborhood, and have done only two significant things to get me out of it, one of which worked for a while until I stopped, wherefore here I am again, somewhat, but trying to get out. [1]

As part of this funk, or rut, or whatever, I've neglected HuSi. Which is stupid and ungrateful of me, because HuSi & even the site from which it calved, and mainly all youze people have been such a great source of joy and un-loneliness in my life for ever-so-long, as I imagine Kate Middleton might say.

More on that at another time, but first let's watch "Why I suck" with Chris Farley as Tommy Boy. Since I've forgotten how to embed videos on HuSi here's a simple link.



I probably won't get out of my rut until I finish writing, and publish, the two novels I've been wrestling with.

But until I figure out how to do that, how to finish those two stupid books that matter to nobody but me but are ripping my insides out like I'm William Goddamn Faulkner or something, I should stop wasting my waking minutes, y'know, being a mopey useless fuck, for life is short, goddammit. Life is goddamn short and full of peril and who knows what the fuck is going to happen. So those of us like me who are blessed in so many ways, not leastwise with good health, should not piss away our good health years, which are finite and few, as any moron knows, with stupidism and stupidness and time-waste and bullshit on twitter or whatever the hell I spend my time on when I'm not working for remuneration or looking for paying work.

But here are two things I'd like to share with you-all by way of a diary entry of the rambling and only somewhat comprehensible patented johnny diary style diary.

First, here's about me as guest at a cyberpunkish/gaming con that's to take place in Rhode Island starting tomorrow.

And here's a photo of me (far left) taking part in an anti KXL pipeline vigil in a nearly blizzardish snowstorm 2 days ago.

That's all for now. I'm going to try to bring myself back into this HuSi mix. It feels like home here, which is not an existentially familiar feeling elsewhere on the wide Internet.

[1] Of the two significant things I've done for myself over the  half-dozen years since I lost my last decently paying job and my brother Paul & sister Maureen died, one of them I'm not going to talk about, but the other is I've become a firefighter. I'll be taking the firefighter officer 1 course from the Massachusetts Firefighting Academy in March. I want to do 1 year as a lieutenant before reaching the mandatory retirement age of 65, which leaves me less than 5 years to get that done. No time for funk now.

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Evidently by johnny (4.00 / 1) #1 Wed Feb 05, 2014 at 10:53:16 PM EST
I've crap-flooded with a wide photo. Not intentional, but I don't know how to correct. Editors, do as you see fit.

She has effectively checked out. She's an un-person of her own making. So it falls to me.--ad hoc (in the hole)
You are a terrible human being. by atreides (4.00 / 5) #2 Wed Feb 05, 2014 at 11:07:39 PM EST
Your picture is bad and you should feel bad.

Or maybe not.

He sails from world to world in a flying tomb, serving gods who eat hope.

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Worse than Hitler [n/t] by Herring (4.00 / 1) #6 Thu Feb 06, 2014 at 11:42:47 AM EST


christ, we're all old now - StackyMcRacky
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Edit the pic by anonimouse (4.00 / 1) #7 Thu Feb 06, 2014 at 02:02:15 PM EST
...click on the image and edit the size it appears as...


Girls come and go but a mortgage is for 25 years -- JtL
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That con looks cool. by muchagecko (4.00 / 1) #3 Wed Feb 05, 2014 at 11:33:36 PM EST
 Wish it was closer, I'd go.

A purpose gives you a reason to wake up every morning.
So a purpose is like a box of powdered donut holes?
Exactly
My Name is Earl

Hey cool, by dark nowhere (4.00 / 3) #4 Wed Feb 05, 2014 at 11:57:37 PM EST
I recently resurfaced here myself and I was wondering if I'd see any posts from you. WB!

Chill out, snowflake.

johnny! by Scrymarch (4.00 / 2) #5 Thu Feb 06, 2014 at 08:18:49 AM EST
Good to see ya.

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wow, you're a keystone pipeline protester? by the mariner (4.00 / 1) #8 Sat Feb 08, 2014 at 09:13:21 AM EST


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