Executive summary: made her dinner, had good conversation, we flirted and she nervously tossed her hair around and made a mess of it which was adorable, finished our wine while talking for an hour on the couch, popped in a movie, snuggled up on the couch, started massaging each other's arms, ended up kissing and massaging for a while, ended up in my bedroom where I told her about the photos on my wall, more kissing and touching, eventually I've got my hand in her hair and I'm starting to pull on it while kissing her and she's moaning...
And she throws me off and says "I don't want to have sex until I'm in a committed relationship." And proceeds to go off on a rant on how okcupid is this bullshit place where people go to just hookup and says "you have like four dates lined up for the next week, right?"
I was speechless - mostly because my speech centers were not exactly the parts of my brain running the show at the time. IIRC I got some words out after blinking at her with a dropped jaw for approximately two minutes.
Jesus. I just...my hat is off to anyone who makes it work in this emotionally barren disaster of a society. I haven't a clue.
In "trying make life less barren" news, school starts next March, which I've probably mentioned several times now. It's going to be tough to make it full time at work all the way to March. I took half of last Thursday and all of Friday off for mental health reasons. I'm going to ask my boss if I can work Monday / Wednesday / Friday while in school. If not, I will quit. I am looking for other potential part time jobs now.
Well, that's still a ton of fun. I had an awesome ride last Saturday, doing my favorite route through the city, twisty hills, and coast, and it was sunny and 70 for most of the ride. Had some good chats with other riders at Alice's restaurant.
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