Lately I've been experiencing increasing levels of stress. I don't actually recover from the previous exposure before the next dose occurs. The nervious facial tick I had at my previous job which went away after I was fired is now back. It's actually worse than it was before.
I've been taking personality tests partly to learn more about myself and partly to learn how to work with others with differing personalities. It's very helpful to identify the personality that other people have so that you can modify your approach to dealing with them. Extroverted people need an entirely different appraoch than introverts and there are many degrees in between and many differing personality types slicing that into finer detail. My personality type is introverted and I'm also the kind of person who needs to understand something before I can make a judgement on it. Likewise I need order in order to work effectively. Chaos is my enemy. Micromanagement and shifting priorities cause me pain. My boss doesn't understand any of this. My boss likes to micromanage me and then shifts priorities and expects me to be able to adjust with out in a minutes notice.
This is probably whining, but when he does this it causes me stress and I have a hard time adjusting. He does this two or three times a day it's driving me nuts. He'll change priorities on something I've spent three weeks planning, and expect me to be able to provide some sort of write up or pre-planning document for the new priority in about an hour. He doesn't understand when I push back. The hour he's giving me? It's not even close to the amount of time that I need to shift gears. Once gears have shifted I can start thinking about the process.
Now a good manager knows how to adjust his style to get the people who work for him to produce effectively. My boss doesn't know how to do this. Don't get me wrong, he's a good guy. I like him a lot. I don't think he's a good manager. I think he's a good consultant and there's a big difference between being a consultant and being a manager. Some people can also be both.
So here I am working for a guy who produces incredible amounts of stress in my working life. Because of corporate bullshit I'm pretty much forced to keep this to myself. All of us working for my boss see it and can't really do anything. We try to provide advice on how to do things, but half the time it falls on deaf ears.
I know anyone who has read this diary over the years is tired of hearing it, but as always I'm searching for a new job. Somewhere out there there's got to be a place that I fit into.
And I'm going to Arkansas tomorrow to start on the latest priority that just got shifted on Thursday afternoon. And it's a dry fricking town.
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