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I walked to a town, where all of us burn.

Poll: What is driving you right now?



I have spent the last couple months living a pretty small life.  It consists of a small space and small concerns.  I have small ambitions.  Sometimes my ambitions are to get the entire place cleaned; sometimes they are to get through the day without thinking to much. Other times, they're just an attempt to get that other level beaten on whatever sad sack of game I'm playing at the time.

But, it's like that these days.  If you asked me at 17 what I'd be doing at 30, I don't think I'd have said this, but at 17 I was sure I'd be dead by 30, so it shows how wrong that little bastard was anyway, dunnit?  These days, about the only things I can get the motivation for is Photography, messing about on the drums, debauchery, and video games.

It is a sad state of Arrested Development affairs you know?  But the part that worries me, is that it doesn't worry me so much.  I have no interest in people of late, they tend to disappoint, and, eventually, grate.

This evening, the upstairs neighbors decided it would be a good idea to film action movies in their living room, so I turned on the old electric drums and had a whale of a tale of a whaletail for a while.  It's the passive aggression at which I excel, what can I say?

I can say plesiosaur, but that's neither hinder nor thinder.

Maybe I will take a photography course, so I don't have to muddle up photos that could otherwise be pretty great; like this one for example.  (Hint: Overexposed/bad lighting)

Anyway that's all that's on my mind.  Just trying to be friendly and hang for a bit.  You know how it goes?  Do you?

If not, it goes like this "Doot doot doot doooooo" and then the horns kick in... and my shoes start to squeak.

Ponderous. 

Barbarossa.

Love,

Q

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Momentum! by blixco (4.00 / 1) #1 Thu Mar 27, 2008 at 05:56:50 PM EST
And, desire.
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"You bring the weasel, I'll bring the whiskey." - kellnerin
Copouts and Pablum my friend... by MisterQueue (4.00 / 1) #3 Thu Mar 27, 2008 at 05:59:04 PM EST
I suppose the momentum is driven by desire, but desire from where/for what?

Oh what a fool I've been.. a fully justified, prudent fool.

-Q
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"When I get bored, I pretend I am MisterQueue." -DullTrev

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Oh, no, by blixco (4.00 / 1) #18 Fri Mar 28, 2008 at 05:00:22 AM EST
I know better than to talk about desire on the internets.
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"You bring the weasel, I'll bring the whiskey." - kellnerin
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Fair enough by MisterQueue (4.00 / 1) #19 Fri Mar 28, 2008 at 05:03:04 AM EST
I'll just go back to browsing porn torrents, don't mind me.

What?  Why are you all looking at me like that?

-Q
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"When I get bored, I pretend I am MisterQueue." -DullTrev

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purposiveness without purpose by BlueOregon (4.00 / 1) #2 Thu Mar 27, 2008 at 05:59:00 PM EST

Kant sometimes calls that purposiveness 'teleology,' and other times reserves that for purposiveness with purpose (for purpose is final cause), but that is immaterial right now.

It's the subjective, aesthetic purposiveness, the 'as if' form and formulation (formulatingnesshood) that drives me, and the sense of delight arising from surprise discoveries that then get formulated into a suspended, paradoxical, temporary whole.

And here I thought by MisterQueue (2.00 / 0) #4 Thu Mar 27, 2008 at 06:05:02 PM EST
that you didn't believe in the subjective.  ;)

Anyway, I understand your point based purely on the fact that I ran that half-mad puppet into its driven strings and, after a time, the stitches show and the paradoxes shimmer through like silvery milk from the moon.

What was I saying?  Oh yes... the temporary discovery/delight only seems to last as long as one has a new belle with which to tarry about through maddening, lustful gardens, and I have a voracious appetite.

Clearly, I need to just become more of a hedonist and fuck all this meaning nonsense.  I mean, really now.

-Q
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"When I get bored, I pretend I am MisterQueue." -DullTrev

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Subjunctive. by ni (4.00 / 1) #5 Thu Mar 27, 2008 at 06:13:52 PM EST
It's the subjunctive he doesn't believe in. And it's a proper thing, too. What a foul goddamn mood the subjunctive is.


"These days it seems like sometimes dreams of Italian hyper-gonadism are all a man's got to keep him going." -- CRwM
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Man by MisterQueue (2.00 / 0) #6 Thu Mar 27, 2008 at 06:17:56 PM EST
you do not befoul the subjunctive in my house!  You try to bring that weak mess to my game and then you are in a world of hurt!

It is safe to say that if I were there, I would give you a schooling my friend.

-Q
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"When I get bored, I pretend I am MisterQueue." -DullTrev

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That last achievement by joh3n (4.00 / 2) #7 Thu Mar 27, 2008 at 08:34:22 PM EST
dammit, I don't wanna fucking carry the garden gnome through the whole game.

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I just ate about 7 pounds of meat
-theantix

Mine was more like by MisterQueue (4.00 / 2) #12 Fri Mar 28, 2008 at 03:33:05 AM EST
"Where in the fuck did I miss a damn diary?!  I've beaten this game 3 times now and it's only been a month!!!"

-Q
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"When I get bored, I pretend I am MisterQueue." -DullTrev

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Is a Q not entitled by joh3n (4.00 / 1) #20 Fri Mar 28, 2008 at 05:51:57 AM EST
to the achievements of his diary hunt?

DAMN YOUUU RYAAAAAAN

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I just ate about 7 pounds of meat
-theantix

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The man in the Kremlin by MisterQueue (4.00 / 1) #21 Fri Mar 28, 2008 at 06:23:33 AM EST
says no, those achievements belong to everyone.

Now would you kindly get down to the basement and get me a crate of rum.

-Q
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"When I get bored, I pretend I am MisterQueue." -DullTrev

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Tried that. by mrgoat (4.00 / 1) #28 Thu Apr 03, 2008 at 05:22:03 AM EST
It turned out to be a lie.

--top hat--
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Wait wait wait... by MisterQueue (4.00 / 1) #29 Fri Apr 04, 2008 at 11:14:08 AM EST
that was rum cake?

Fuckin 'ell why didn't someone tell me?!

-Q
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"When I get bored, I pretend I am MisterQueue." -DullTrev

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Mild curiosity by Merekat (4.00 / 2) #8 Fri Mar 28, 2008 at 12:31:28 AM EST
And the possibility of cheese.

So.... by MisterQueue (2.00 / 0) #13 Fri Mar 28, 2008 at 03:34:20 AM EST
much like a rat?  I would make some sort of cage joke but I shan't be so cliche, eh?

-Q
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"When I get bored, I pretend I am MisterQueue." -DullTrev

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Indeed by Merekat (4.00 / 3) #17 Fri Mar 28, 2008 at 03:40:22 AM EST
Despite all my rage.

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A six-year-old Volvo. by yicky yacky (4.00 / 1) #9 Fri Mar 28, 2008 at 01:45:06 AM EST
At least if I crash, I know the Scandinavian lords of cladding are on my side. Sod this; I'm going fishing.
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Vacuity abhors a vacuum.
I always find it comforting by MisterQueue (4.00 / 1) #16 Fri Mar 28, 2008 at 03:38:40 AM EST
to have several Scandinavian Lords at my side during any sort of tense or strenuous times.  I think it's the melancholy that does it for me.

"Oh Eskil, you and your constant existential crises...  how delightful!  Pour me another scotch will you?"

-Q
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"When I get bored, I pretend I am MisterQueue." -DullTrev

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Seriously by me0w (4.00 / 2) #10 Fri Mar 28, 2008 at 01:49:18 AM EST
Did you have to take a picture of me eating an apple? I mean really .... I hadn't brushed my hair and I didn't put on any makeup. AND you caught me with my mouth open. Geeze.


"the only reason we PMS is because our uterus is screaming at our brain to go out, get fucked, and have a baby ... and it makes us angry."

I was under the impression by MisterQueue (4.00 / 1) #14 Fri Mar 28, 2008 at 03:34:45 AM EST
that your mouth never closed.   HEY-OOOoooo!  Thank you folks, I'll be here all week.

-Q
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"When I get bored, I pretend I am MisterQueue." -DullTrev

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WIPO by DullTrev (4.00 / 1) #11 Fri Mar 28, 2008 at 02:32:27 AM EST

The monkey on my back, man. THE MONKEY ON MY BACK.

And he keeps dropping bits of apple down my collar. Bastard.


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DFJ?
Apple Collars by MisterQueue (2.00 / 0) #15 Fri Mar 28, 2008 at 03:36:46 AM EST
sound like some new sort of fauxstylez from American Eagle or... I dunno... Banana Republic (Now in Pink!)

Why in the hell are those two horrible things leaping to mind at 7:30 in the morning and what does this say about me?  You decide.

-Q
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"When I get bored, I pretend I am MisterQueue." -DullTrev

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WIPO: Nothing. by MohammedNiyalSayeed (4.00 / 1) #22 Fri Mar 28, 2008 at 06:48:56 AM EST

I am an unmanned vehicle.

I thought for sure I'd be dead by 30. I was wrong, but that was largely just a lack of preparation on my part. For 40, I will be ready.


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You can build the most elegant fountain in the world, but eventually a winged rat will be using it as a drinking bowl.
Be careful when nulling the void by MisterQueue (4.00 / 1) #23 Fri Mar 28, 2008 at 08:28:35 AM EST
because the offer may be so in some states of mind.

Or... something like that.

I wouldn't say that I was unprepared, so much as it's a lot more difficult to do in a pseudo-sly way.  I would've expected that much abuse would've done it by now, but apparently I'm not trying hard enough.

But, as they say, if at first you don't succumb...

-Q
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"When I get bored, I pretend I am MisterQueue." -DullTrev

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I hear what thou sayest by MohammedNiyalSayeed (4.00 / 1) #24 Fri Mar 28, 2008 at 01:25:48 PM EST

But I'm not so worried about the temporary state of my mind; the notion that this is all played out, and that I've had enough, has been pretty consistent over the past years, so I remain comfortable that preparing is the correct thing to do.

Additionally, I do find that with regard to abuse, the Nietschian axiom holds true; the more damage you do, the more damage you can do.


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You can build the most elegant fountain in the world, but eventually a winged rat will be using it as a drinking bowl.
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The one thing I find most pleasing by MisterQueue (4.00 / 1) #25 Fri Mar 28, 2008 at 01:31:14 PM EST
is that the more freed I feel, the more free everything else feels; if that makes sense.

When the time comes though, whoever and whatever; if I'm about, I'll be sure to buy a drink in your honor and throw it at the wall of a bar so the glass shatters and streaks down the wall.

It's only fitting.

-Q
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"When I get bored, I pretend I am MisterQueue." -DullTrev

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Pleasure by moonvine (4.00 / 1) #26 Wed Apr 02, 2008 at 12:13:53 PM EST
and peace!

Yes please by MisterQueue (2.00 / 0) #27 Wed Apr 02, 2008 at 01:20:39 PM EST
all of the above.

-Q
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"When I get bored, I pretend I am MisterQueue." -DullTrev

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