Went to the cafe during an unscheduled break and tears started coming out, a coworker noticed before I even knew what the hell was happening to me. I'd prefer to have a break down somewhere else. Was trying to decide if I should go home or what not but managed to pull myself together and finish the shift.
I'm thankful the adrenaline has gone away maybe it's just because I tired myself out but I hope that's not the case. I'm still a nervous wreck but I'm starting to feel better and am able to think normally not as if I'm about to go insane. I'll take a nice long bath to relax and might go out to a bar before work for the same reason. Not sure why but Disturbed the Sickness album manages to claim me down. I believe it normally has the opposite affect on people but hearing a track from it on the radio seems to be doing just that.
Anything else I should try to relax my nerves?
I have some tea that might help.
Alcohol seems to just be putting fuel to the fire. (Increasing stupid behaviour.)
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