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By Troll Hard (Fri Nov 02, 2007 at 09:44:29 AM EST) Work, career, fiction, mental illness, recovery (all tags)
I've been out of work since 2002, but things are starting to look up.


I've fixed computer systems for friends and family members to make ends meet, lived on what my wife earns as a nurse, and I learned to live a minimalist living lifestyle that is almost like Buddhism and rejecting materialism in order to make ends meet. My wife helped as she was raised Buddhist.

We managed to keep the house, pay off one of the automotives and if I didn't have an accident with one of them both would have been paid off. I've gotten credit card debt down to a more reasonable level and have a plan to pay it all off in about five years. Though I had to use it in emergencies for gas money, food, medicine, hospital visits, I've managed to keep a good credit rating.

I've been reading up on several computer languages, some I already knew like C++, Java, Python, Visual BASIC, just that they have newer versions of them now. I picked up on C#, Ruby, and am looking into a few others. I got a few software projects in mind, and one of my old small business partners wants to start up a new software company with me as soon as his service in the Army is over, or if his reserve unit doesn't get sent to Iraq in the process. I got another old business partner that wants to make a deli or cyber cafe and would need help with it. I got an old friend turning his game store into a computer store and is asking me advice when I ran a small business computer store of my own. I've been doing a lot of research into new technology, buying books, reading articles online, finding new business trends, finding problems that haven't been solved yet and doing the analysis and design of writing software to solve some of those problems.

Over the past five years I've been busy going back to college, fixing computers, developing web pages, debugging software that friends and family members that went to college tried to write and needed help on, and doing what I can to keep busy. Though I admit on the Internet I've also done my fair amount of trolling I am looking to end that soon and get serious about going back to work and earning some money.

If I suddenly vanish for a while, it means I am busy doing other stuff. First up I need to get my health improved, learn to deal with stress better, etc. I learned how to meditate, which helps. I learned how to not care what strangers on the Internet say about me, because it is all trolling and trolls shouldn't be taken seriously anyway.

The only thing that can stop me now is a serious illness or sudden death. I've improved over five years' time, but I still have a long way to go to reach my full potential. While I am not perfect and I never claimed to be perfect or better than anyone else on the planet, I do learn from my mistakes and I have learned how to adapt to change.

Some of you might have known me by various user names, my so called aliases that I researched for writing fiction by acting it out on the Internet. I learned a bit about writing, and on some Wikis I wrote some fiction works that others said had potential based on the aliases I used on K5 and Husi previously. I only did so for satire, sarcasm, parody, and almost everything I wrote was a bit of fiction to gain experience. I am sorry if people took me seriously and considered me a jerk for doing those things. I blame myself for failing to communicate properly what I was doing or why I did it. Then again, it is not anything that anyone else does on the Internet, and a lot of people have done the same exact things I did, but got popular results from it. For those I may have offended, I sincerely apologize.

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chin up by moonvine (2.00 / 0) #1 Fri Nov 02, 2007 at 10:41:45 AM EST
and good luck to you!

(i hope this isn't a troll)

Most trolls die this way. by muchagecko (2.00 / 0) #2 Fri Nov 02, 2007 at 11:04:35 AM EST
Once real life sets in, you can't keep up the ruse.

"It means more if you have to earn it, even if it's by doing something as simple as eating a meal." Kellnerin
LM's SO ? by sasquatchan (2.00 / 0) #3 Fri Nov 02, 2007 at 11:13:39 AM EST


Nah, Orion Blastar most likely by georgeha (4.00 / 2) #4 Fri Nov 02, 2007 at 11:39:23 AM EST



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blas by discordia (2.00 / 0) #5 Fri Nov 02, 2007 at 12:40:11 PM EST
tard

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