I push myself quite hard, I'm general clear when I'm not happy with my progress and why. I can be quite intense in the pursuit of goals. All this masks the bit where I also know it is okay to fail, that other people don't seem to have experience of people who can push at something, have a little outburst of frustration at something not working, then coldly, quickly analyse, drop it and move on.
Anyway, what was the point. Yes, so, I push myself hard for a reason. The last two days I have been doing a training course which was delivered in German. There were formal theory sessions, input sessions and roleplays. At one point, I was physically sweating with concentration. I could barely walk straight afterwards, I was so tired. However, at the end of it all I also felt utterly fantastic. That's why I do it, that's why I am so hard on myself. For that buzz.
Today I shall take it easy, do banal things with spreadsheets and perhaps have sushi.
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