I showed Teh Y's the ending to FFX on Saturday (after some truly fantastic steaks) and they were as bummed as I was, but it helps to have somebody to share the grief with.
My company just signed a major reseller agreement with $HUGE_TECHNOLOGY_COMPANY so we are having a beer-and-champagne bash out in the parking lot. Unfortunately, I have rehearsal tonight, so I can't get completely ripped like I would like.
I put a bunch of stuff in Flickr over the weekend. I really should get a pro account, though, because having only three sets is ridiculous.
I got both my EZ-Tag from HCTRA and my car's title from the finance company in the mail on Saturday. I think my home theatre system, such as it is, might know that I just paid off the car, because things are starting to fail bit by bit. The DVD player, which was never the world champion at reading discs reliably, now refuses to read even brand-new DVDs. The integrated amp makes a strange, almost ocean-like hissing noise when nothing else is playing (like, loud enough to have woken me up last night), and takes a long time to warm up from a power-off condition. I really, really don't want to have to spend money on that right now. I know it's probably the least interesting observation about life I can make, but I'm continually amazed at how when I was 19 and had no money at all I couldn't wait to spend it on audio equipment and now that I've got the jack to throw around, I don't want to. What has happened to me?
I internalize a lot of stuff. Maybe because I don't think whining openly will get me anywhere; because I think to be a man means to be a rock. Because people have come up with the derisive appellation "emo" to attach to people who talk about their feelings all the time. Or maybe I'm just afraid to have people know what I'm thinking. When I was in therapy for depression in college, I was described by one of my LMSWs as "the most cheerful depressed person I've ever met". But on a daily basis I have to hide a lot of anger and bitterness and despair. And I wonder if everybody feels the same way.
It's time to stop putting lots of emotional energy into relationships that aren't going anywhere, that's for sure.
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