Going my way?

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Going your way? No by curmudgeon (4.00 / 1) #1 Sun Jun 12, 2011 at 12:51:03 AM EST
Only you are going your way.  Only I am going my way.  The road I'm on, most of it is my own choosing, I know.  I've handled obstacles it seems mainly by lifing them and carrying them with me.  I know there are other roads, other paths i can take, other ways to deal with the obstacles.  And yet, I'm afraid, I think, to change paths, to try an uncertain way.  The path I'm on is very difficult, but I know the path.  Those other paths, I'm not at all sure where they lead and some I'm certain lead to far worse paths than the one I'm on.  There isn't a one certain to lead to a better path.
Get over it.
Funny you wrote this by yankeehack (4.00 / 2) #2 Sun Jun 12, 2011 at 12:19:09 PM EST
On Friday night, I drove LO to her latest paramour's house. The family lives in a neighborhood of $500k 4+ bedroom colonials, complete with manicured lawns, minivans in the driveway and kids running around. Typical upper middle class suburbia.

Every time I go into that neighborhood, a piece of my soul dies. You see, my parents are more than disappointed that I'm not living in a place like that. Driving past each house, I wonder if these people are happy really.

"Goddamnit LO," I say, "I can't wait to get out of here and move to San Francisco." "Mom," LO replies as she looks out the window at the houses, "this place is so boring. I see myself in a city, don't you?"
"...she dares to indulge in the secret sport. You can't be a MILF with the F, at least in part because the M is predicated upon it."-CBB

Cool by Merekat (4.00 / 1) #6 Mon Jun 13, 2011 at 02:28:18 AM EST
Urban Gilmore girls:)

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Don't fool yourself. by Tonatiuh (2.00 / 0) #8 Tue Jun 14, 2011 at 06:49:20 AM EST
Some of those people are actually quite happy... some aren't.

May the world continue to be such an interesting and unpredictable place.

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True by yankeehack (2.00 / 0) #9 Tue Jun 14, 2011 at 08:46:18 AM EST
but how boring a place the world would be if everyone aspired to live in the suburbs.
"...she dares to indulge in the secret sport. You can't be a MILF with the F, at least in part because the M is predicated upon it."-CBB
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No intersections? by Merekat (4.00 / 1) #3 Sun Jun 12, 2011 at 01:08:28 PM EST
Really? Every word that drops from your keyboard to our eyes is a connection.

Or just none where it is very important you find some right now?

Pride day by lm (4.00 / 1) #4 Sun Jun 12, 2011 at 01:36:49 PM EST
The public perception of pride marches by the gay community has shifted quite a bit over the last few decades. As a teen, I marched in one to support my mom. Most people (whether in the parade, watching the parade, or protesting the parade) just assumed that if I had anything to do with the parade, I must be gay.

Now that my children are teens, most of the kids at their respective schools see the parades as little more than good fun. A few still see it as a political statement. One of my daughter's friends was pissed off at her father for scheduling her graduation party on the same day so she couldn't attend. I can't imagine a straight kid being upset about that twentty years ago.

Being on the periphery of the lesbian community when I was a teen was interesting. I once met a lady that might have sent an email like the one ni forwarded to you. My mom took me to a gay bar to watch her lover's band play. A older woman (from the perspective of a 14/15 year boy) came up to me, gave me a piece of paper with her name and phone number on it and said that if I ever wanted help getting out of that lifestyle that she could find me help. It took me quite some time to figure out what was going on. (Which may have had something to do with me being stoned off of second hand marijuana smoke.) My mom's lover remarked that the woman was very brave to put herself into that sort of situation. I didn't get what sort of situation she was going on about.

Completely changing the topic, the tone in this diary reminds me of the tone in a diary before ana `came out' on k5. I can't remember the title or even the approximate date. The narrative presented a halfalogue of ana on the phone, transposing her thoughts against her statements. At the end was the question, 'what am i?'

That bit of writing has haunted me all these years. It's pretty powerful stuff.

There is no more degenerate kind of state than that in which the richest are supposed to be the best.
Cicero, The Republic
Thanks... by ana (2.00 / 0) #5 Sun Jun 12, 2011 at 05:01:10 PM EST
I have vague memories of writing such a diary, but I can't find it based on your description. Ah, well.

"And this ... is a piece of Synergy." --Kellnerin

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It's something of a trend. by Phage (2.00 / 0) #7 Mon Jun 13, 2011 at 05:39:43 AM EST
I've said this before; I have never met anyone in RL who comes close to my psychology as some of the people here.

Not your way, but I can see your path from here.