Anyway, I know what you mean, but I take a different approach I guess. I leave as many options open as I can, and only burn bridges intentionally when I find it satisfying. As far as the "passion of the warrior within" I have the opposite problem from you. I can be a very aggressive person by nature and prone to anger. As a result, since my childhood I have worked to control all of that, although sometimes I go too far and appear meek. I will tell you this though, if you want to accomplish your goals, you have to be aggressive and take calculated risks. I have learned that later than I would like. You also have to let go of fears and cares to a degree. It's sort of a weird thing but I've been trying a non-buddhist approach that requires me to stop caring so much about things and just let what happens as a result of my actions happen. It is easier to get what you want when you act like you don't care if you want it or not, while you try to get it. At least, this seems to be working out for me.
For example, I've found that it is easier to get paid more at a job if you act like you don't really want the job. It's like taking the idea of not appearing desperate to a new level. By being unconcerned, others will assume that you are calm for a good reason, and follow your lead.- - - - - That's what I always say about you, boz, you have a good memory for random facts about pussy. -- joh3n[ Parent ]
But then again it can be argued that they actually imply the same things. For me, burning the boats seems the most fitting to my situation: the war that is waging between my present and future against the powerful pull and memories of my past sabotaging and keeping stagnant any hope for healing or over coming. In a nutshell I have held onto even the bad episodes in a weird psycho babble comfort blanket way. It has become part of who "I am " and that is not how I see myself! So, I need to burn it, drop it, accept it for what it was, and move on. And well, the story of Alexander the great telling his captains to burn their boats just fits in so well with what I aim and need to do to get back the self I seemed to have lost along the rubble.
Short story long, I am feeling exactly what you have written here =) And thank you.[ Parent ]
