Prove it and I'll believe you.-- This is not a psychotic episode. It is a cleansing moment of clarity.[ Parent ]
No offence, but I'm feeling particularly truculent at the moment. (Assume I add that disclaimer to any comment I make for the next 48 hours or so)-- This is not a psychotic episode. It is a cleansing moment of clarity.[ Parent ]
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You and others are under no obligation to listen to me or provide me a place to speak, as I am not speaking to you and I am not posting on your property. Husi is a public place to post, and if you are not an editor or admin, you cannot deny me a place to speak here. Get used to it.
If my comments bother you that much, just ignore them. If I am accused of being a troll, the best thing to do with a troll is to ignore them. You are under no obligations to reply to any of my posts or diaries.
Basically I don't care what you think, and what you say is no more important to me than dust in the wind. Yet you have a right to say it and the freedom to express yourself, and unlike you I'd never take that away from you as you seem to what to take it away from me with threats to drive me off of this web site.
No, it belongs to Hulver, there's nothing public about it. You (and I) post only at his discretion.
if you are not an editor or admin, you cannot deny me a place to speak here.
No, but we can zero you if we feel like it, and can certainly tell you to fuck off if that's our desire. "Get used to it" - freedom of speech works both ways.
Ditto.
I'd never take that away from you as you seem to what to take it away from me with threats to drive me off of this web site
How exactly can "we" do that? Genuine question - if you don't want to leave, how can any of us make you?
I have no quarrel with you, other than that a lot of what you post appears to me to be a waste of bandwidth (but then I'm sure that many would say the same of me), but you do seem to have something of a chip on your shoulder.-- This is not a psychotic episode. It is a cleansing moment of clarity.[ Parent ]
How many people who had their careers and lives ruined do you personally know? Would you blame such a person for having a chip on their shoulder?
Beware of the ultimatum...
Suddenly if the other party is blamed for something, hey let's all attack the victim and call him an asshole and a troll!
No, you're an asshole and a troll because you're a bad person. You may or may not be mentally ill; if you are, then that's too bad, and it doesn't make you a bad person. One of my best friends from high school is schizophrenic. Mocking someone's suicide, however, does make you a bad person (don't think I haven't heard about that). Good day.---------
I am not a good person because I am mentally ill, that is what you are trying to say.
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I had gotten a lot of people on Kuro5hin, IWETHEY, Husi, etc telling me to go kill myself. I suffer from schizo affective disorder and depression and was fighting off suicidal thoughts due to all the stress I was under.
So the best way to get those suicidal thoughts out of my system was to do a cyber suicide. The only person I really mocked as myself. It fooled nobody, but it avoided me killing myself for real or going into a hospital.
I am so ill that I am on disability and cannot work. The online communities have no idea of the sort of stress and things they have done to me, which by your definition makes them the bad people for forcing me into suicidal thoughts and doing a mock suicide of myself. I suffer a lot of mental cruelty from people who call themselves so called humanitarians.
I once had a good career and I once made a whole lot of money in that career. Now everything I ever hoped for is gone and there are just very few reasons left for me to live.
Why?
Your career is irrelevant. To live is to experience, to learn, and to influence others (preferably for the good). So, go do that.
No one goes to their death bed thinking "I wish I spent more time in the office".-- This is not a psychotic episode. It is a cleansing moment of clarity.[ Parent ]
Perhaps I thought people here had wizened up and learned from their past mistakes. Yet it doesn't seem to be the case.
What I have learned is to not put value on what negative people like yourself say about me. If I can do that, then it does not hurt as much.
Alas I cannot live and experience and learn and influence others due to the mental illnesses that I have. I am able to learn and experience, and I do want to influence others for the greater good. But I keep being discriminated against because of my mental illnesses, and it keeps me down.
When I did work, I helped others learn how to program, as many were hired with a Comp Sci degree but had problems learning how to program. I trained them and tutored them until they had a better understanding. When I was in college I tutored other students in programming and debugged their programs. Those were happier times for me, but those days are over.
It is hard for me to adjust to this world that discriminates against the mentally ill. Because I am mentally ill and it causes behavior in me, I often get the wrong ideas people make about me. There is a stigmata against the mentally ill in that we are the type to be assholes, or trolls, or bad people, because he have behavior that the mental illness creates that we have a hard time controlling. It is noticeable even on the Internet.
If I could be free of these mental illnesses I would be happier. But there is no cure. No hope. Just people who discriminate against me and confuse my mental illness for sanity. Yet I've been out of work since 2002 and my family have suffered for that too. Very few here have even bothered to try to see things from my point of view, and most don't and accuse me of being an asshole or troll without ever seeing things from my point of view or walking a mile in my shoes.
I don't even know why I considered giving Husi a second chance, or that I wouldn't be discriminated against again. I thought Husi had matured and grown up, guess I was wrong?
I had hoped to see Michael Crawford still posting on here, but like me he seems to have left due to discrimination against his mental illnesses. Which establishes a pattern with certain Husi members.
These few messages are the first time I remember ever responding to you, yet already you write me off as an enemy. So be it.-- This is not a psychotic episode. It is a cleansing moment of clarity.[ Parent ]
I am not writing you off as an enemy, just someone who doesn't understand me yet. Your few posts currently do have a negative effect on me, so that is why I thought you were a negative person. I guess with all the others attacking me in this thread I sort of get used to the idea of everyone here ganging up on me. Sorry about that, it is my paranoia talking.
We're not ganging up on you, we just have highly tuned bullshit detectors, and right now mine is off the scale; I've known genuinely ill people, and you just don't feel right.
Oh, and I most certainly am a negative person, but I haven't even begun to be negative towards you yet (ok, apart from maybe that last sentence). I simply don't believe you - schizo affective disorder I'll take on trust, but your employer poisoning you and you not suing? Bullshit. -- This is not a psychotic episode. It is a cleansing moment of clarity.[ Parent ]
